eww.. im havin hiccups now. x((

i changed me blogskin. and, most imptly, its RED! hahas. i love it!! woolalas. =))

hahs. nth's reali worth bloggin today. yupp. except dat , I LOVE MY SEC 3 GUIDES! <33` esp putri and company. *BIG HUGGS.

And, afterall, Dewi is still my LUCKYSTAR! =)) shalalas. only she and me wil understand. =))

p.s. stupid bestie! wo bu shi WA ZI! argh. >:(

=) school reopen already.. and its time to mug all the way till Os. no time to slack anymore.. school's almost der same, but just that all ther teachers kept stressin us about how little time do we have.. damn.. but i tink i've started off rite, i'll keep it dis way.. =))

a-maths tution was called off last minute.. hais. so i ended up sleepin.. lols. going off to study soon.. =))

i found out sth today. somehow it was heart-wrenchin. hahas. i tot it wont matter to me anymore, but im afraid i was wrong.. x( your happiness is all dat i hoped for.. you guys are reali meant to be.. your smile matters more den anything else.. =)

HAHS. bestie, you still dun understand. it seems like you do, but im afraid you dont. x( eww. i dun blame you. im weird. hahs. BEAUTIFUL HEARTBREAK. opps. x))

hahs. nth to sayin bout last nite. fcukin PISSED. wasted my time, you son of a bitch.
i tot u'll understand. but if u dont, i cant do anythg.

forget bout ytd.=)) went townin wif Col today. hahas. we had FUN! shalalas. even thou i forgot to bring my wallet. damn. she was STUCK to for der whole day. lols. as if i'll run away. hahs. and she's a TOTAL GONECASE. lols. i duno wat to say. speechless. x( lols.


we saw sth on der train. we were stunned. o.O

im damn tired now and my legs are achin. eww..x((

stupid bestie. im not dumb like you alrite. hahs. xP

nth much today. watched Just My Luck wif Jy, gladys and vonne. yupp. not badd. din regret =)) how great if a kiss could change everythg in real life..

hahs. i realised dat i no longer noe you. you are no longer der boy whom i play and joke wif.. der boy who tells me your problems.. der boy whom i vent my anger on when im mad.. der boy whom i always bully almost everyday. im like a stranger to you, and you are like one to me..

=) i send der necklace for repair alr. dere's a hidden meanin behind dis. =) i hope i can do it dis time round..hais.i'm hesitatin still.. yes or no?

there's sth i reali dun wanna admit. but i have to..

I MISS YOU!
i miss you guys.. i reali do.. x(
in my heart, i still hope everythg can go back to der past.
i miss every moment back den.
but i noe dats impossible.
we are on different paths.
and our life will no longer cross each other's.



sorry, just a random post.

guides today was.. err.. hahs, der 1st part of marchin i did enjoy, dewi and jesse was fun. den der rest of it was, dots, waste of time. thnks to some irresponsible ppl hu are supposed to come but gaf some stupid lame excuses. hahs. blardy lame.

went j8 wif jesse after dat. and jesse got a lil moodswing.xP we saw quite a no. of ppl.. lols. i saw my gentlemen. lalas. and saw christine too, LOL, she's sooooo gurl. hahas. farni x)). stupid ah huat, arghhh! i dun like you!

hahs. A BIG BIG SMILE. =D im high now. last nite too. lalalas.


shalalas. i made dis. x)) and its for you, my dear boy.

hahs. today marks der start of der last week of hols. x( i swear im gonna spend it wisely. err. hope so.

P.O.A remedial today. err, didnt learn much lar. all thnks to ah huat, tok and tok and tok. lalalas.

went home after remedial. py and me decided to catch Benchwarmers. last min decision. den jesse called, and she joined us too. last min again.. den, due to der seatings, we watched RV in de end.. everything was like so, LAST MIN. der movie's nice. =)) and jesse went off, while py and me headed to newton for dinner, but we ended up eatin MOS in J8. lols. long story.. and we went to try on some heels b4 gg home. py tried one which is pretty cool ehh. NICE =))

i tried on a dress in heeren. jesse and py say its not bad. and der price is very affordable larr. its cute. im startin to fall in love wif it alr.. but, im afraid dat i'll regret. HAIS. shld i, or shld i not?

GUIDES TML MORNIN. oh well, i love guides.. yes i do... x(

my throat is gettin better.. yupps. even thou it still hurts alot, at least i can tok now.. x) lalas. i gotta bear wif it, a few more days and i can start to scream and shout again!! muahhahs! x))

SIAN! still need to go skool tml.. tue, thur and fri too. wth. last week of hols lehh. argghhhh~! i dun wan to go to der rock concert for duty lar. stupid dumb.

haf i done der right thing? i duno.. hais. its okie.. its not der 1st dumb thg dat ive done.


i need you.

ahhhh~ dere's a 5cent coin size ulcer on my tongue.
blardy hell.. its fcukin pain larr. arghhh.. BITCH.


dont let go.. i cant afford to...

ihateyou!ihateyou!ihateyou!

wats der meanin of dat? ignorin? avoidin? or cant be bothered? CHOOSE ONE PLEASE!

arghh. my sore throat is killin me larr..
its like as if sth's burnin inside..
diputs eitseb. hgra. mi kcis tub did uoy neve erac? hgra!!!

BITCH! >:( FCUK!

ewww. im soooooo sick. and i have soooo many different types of pills to swallow. AND col and huat says my face is swollen!! ahhhhhhhhh~! x((

argh. actuali planned to watch Cars ytd. but all thnks to bestie, didnt watch in de end. and he bluff me somemore!! arghhh. bitch bitch.

does dis means dat things are gettin better..? mayb we can go back to der past?


continue addin colours to my life, my dear boy.. =)

SMILE. i forced myself to everyday.

lingering in der past.
dats der oly thg dat'll make me feel better.

it seems like it was juz ytd dat i was still laughin away at der jokes we shared.
now it seems so far, and der coldness make me tear..

oh well, FUCK IT. im fuckin pissed.

& all my NANA anime is GONE larr! damn.

nth can be der same again i noe..i noe wat u wan..dun try to tell me thgs and say dat its jokin..i guess u reali mean it, dont u?i dun wanna hold u back, if u wan, den, GO! just GO!

=))

hey gurl. i noe you have been tryin to help all along.. thnks for all dat.. but i noe we cant go back like der past.. dis is our frenship, i noe it better den anyone else.. let thgs juz remain der way it is, i'll get used to it sooner or ltr.. its not dat bad after all ehh? =)) it doesnt matter whether we still communicate often or wat, i noe as long as in my heart, i tell myself, our frenship is true and nth can stop us.. yup. dats wat i tink, so, thnks gurl, for watever you've done.. dun let it hold you back further. alrite ? =D

promises uh? hahs. its all BULLSHIT.

'dun tink too much..' dats wat dey always say. but seriously its not der matter of you tinkin too much or wat.. its juz dat somethgs, you cant like juz put it away dat easily.. mayb dey'll nvr understand.. so der only thg to do is only to tell dem, 'okie, i wont tink too much..' which is more or less a lie..

you'll NEVER understand

oh well, pls keep all der WORDS of care and concern to yourself.. i tink your actions matters more..

=)) had fun wif col today.




hmm. i guess you still dun understand.. do you? dont you get it? =x come on. be smarter dis time round.. alrite?

=) SMILE.

=)) nth today.








im trying my best to hold you back.

hahs. thnks boy=) you are a great fren too. yupps. no doubt. =))


the thots are killin me. can you tell me wat to do to get back like last time? pls dun tell me dere's no way out.

i had a nightmare last nite..
i woke up in tears..


i dreamt dat i was a complete darkness..
i was trembling in fear..
den u appeared in front of me.
i smiled, but your coldness strikes me.
i tried to reached out for you..
den i realised, your warmth isnt dere anymore..
you turned your back on me..
i called out for you, but you didnt look back.
i tried to stand up and catch up wif you, but my legs were weak..
i couldnt stand up.. i've got no strength at all
i sat dere watchin you disappear in my sight..
i cant do anythg more, than sittin dere lettin my tears blur my vision and you walked away..

had fun last nite! hahas. confer wid col and difficult guy. lols. he and his silly comments larr. stupid reasonings oso. damn farni lorr. but, he was kinda rude.. =x hahs. nobody's perfect.. yupp =))


went town wid jesse, py and yl today. yupp. den jesse finally got her bag. =)) lols. and yl is a blardy joker lar. lols. and jesse is so not jesse today larr. wahh. pls jesse, dun behave dat way ehh?


hahs. guess wat? my mum bought me this keychain! lols. so unbelievable larr. hahas. i love it! thnks mummy! =))


hahs. dun worry col, ali is here to save you ehh! =)) LOLs.


hmm. sorry bestie bout der post ytd. yup. reali sorry.. =)) bestie always ehh? =))

back from hosp. hais. granny's admitted into hosp again. she fell down early in der mornin and dislocated her arm. hais. get well soon granny! lurfe ya.


other than dat, nth much happened today. yupp. juz a simple, borin and hurtful day. =)) but i still gotta say. Woolala~ . x)) gees.


oh ya, most imptly, HAPPY BDAY DIFFICULT GUY! =))

oh ya. bout der post ytd, DER SEQUENCE DOESNT MATTER! lols.

wahas. as usual, had a maths tution. but i managed to pushed it to der mornin.=)) hais. sorry daniel, i swear i'll try to rmb every single formula by heart. i wont disappoint you derr. =)) i'll study hard. =))


after dat went out to meet my gurlfrens. hahs. one missing =x yupps.but we did haf fun. lots of fun. =)) we took neos. and we took lots of pics too. weird ones i mean. hahs. =)) shalalas.






wahaas. HUGGIES.











dozingg off.. -.- zz


hais. im guilty. sorry guys. i pissed you guys off whenever it comes to dat topic, esp col.. sry gurl =x. mayb shld avoid dis topic for der time being to avoid anymore.. hais. duno lar. and, sorry bestie. i my attitude was bad today =x.


i shld juz shuddup for today. my mouth is... arghh. suay. damn.=x

i didnt turn up for chem prac today. cuz.. i felt sooo 'jelly'. didnt wanna get off der bed. der more i dun feel like steppin outta der hse. so yar, i stayed at home and did some amaths qns, den mapled wif bestie..hahs. he said he'll protect me and he did.i did protect him too alrite~ and i love to pick cocos!=xx and oso i did some writings! =)))


For Se7en & bestie. =DD



For my sweeties. =DD



hahs. im juz boredd lar. lols.


hmm. den went for tution.reluctantly. for der sake of my results. but im dead beat larr. but.. hais. duno lar. sth went wrong seriously wrong.. i duno lar. misunderstandin? hahs. no idea. aiya. watever it is, i dun wan care alr larr. say im stubborn, but im sorry, im not gonna be der one again. ive tried b4. not dat i din. but it juz din work out.


thnks daddy! <33`

hahas. random post.=)) i like dis!


you can say im childish. i dun care.

=)) you din feel to make me smile again. you've made my day.


received mornin call frm bestie.i woke up, but i felt a lil weird. around 20mins ltr, i got off der bed and went to take a shower. and denn... LOLS, i almost black-out in der toilet. but i managed to get out of der bathroom and woke my mum up. HAHS. history repeated itself.=x but i guess no one will bother oso. isnt it? hahs. and mayb some BITCH out dere hope dat i'll die ehh.=))


rested for ard 30mins. i felt much better and i left der hse. met jesse and nigel for breakfast den off for oral. LOLS. ORAL SUCKS. my mind juz like, proof, blank. i wanted to say sth but nth came out. WTH. hais. well, its over.. after dat, stayed back in skool wid jesse to wait for chem remedial.


nth much happened durin der prac. juz dat, i got sth frm some one, which is not essential for me. thnks BITCH.=)


sorry col.. sorry for complainin so much and being too nosey. and sorry for pissin you off last nite. but, i reali had enuf of all dat.


hahs. sorry i've had enuf.wat more do u expect frm me, my dear fren? i've alr explained to you everythg..but you dun seem to understand.too bad, so sad. i cant pls you any longer. you dun seem to appreciate wat ive done, den, forget it. juz take it dat, we duno each other bahh.if you tell me, you are like der 2 of dem, mayb i'll try yo pls you like a princess, but, MIND YOU, you are not.ive done enuf, but i'll juz take it as you're blind or cold blooded. you CANT FEEL ANYTHG, CANT SEE ANYTHG. oh come on, even if im wrong, i swear ive done enuf to make it up. so now, i dun tink i deserve dat kinda fcukin treatment alrite? im juz ur fren, not your pet or wat. you said you got emotions, but look at urself, der way you are treatin me now. MIND YOU, I HAF EMOTIONS TOO. dun gif me dat kinda attitude or look, it wont work for me. frm today onwards, i'l juz take it as i cant c u. you blardy hell pissed me off when you diao me. cb.
(i noe she wont get to read dis, but i hope some kind souls can pass der msg to her. thnks.)


im sick of being der 'good ali' alr.